Tag: banishment

MOVING ON

MOVING ON

I woke up this morning feeling lighter, braver, more optimistic. I don’t really know why. I’ve been dealing with moving to another state, feeling a lot of anxiety and fear about the future (a complete waste of time), healing from a recent tooth extraction (totally…

A Healthy Brain

A Healthy Brain

Recently, I’ve become concerned about what the effects of ongoing grief and depression have had on my brain. I have experienced so much trauma, heartache, abuse and betrayal over the course of my life that it feels like sometimes I am unable to cope and…

Another lonely Mother’s Day

Another lonely Mother’s Day

The wind is crowded with hungry ghosts tonight.   Sitting at my kitchen table, I warm my hands  on a mug of hot coffee.   My eyes cut to the mantle, to the photo, where  your laughter was once caught like a passing train.  …

Alone

Alone

I’ve always liked having time for myself, to do what I want and just enjoy my own company. During those times, I often feel a creative urge to write, to compose or just listen to music and daydream. It’s true that being alone is where…

Past, Present and Future

Past, Present and Future

I’m sitting here at my desk, listening to the distant rumble of thunder. While looking out the window at the darkening sky, I am jolted from my reverie by the sudden, intrusive grind of an electric saw. There have been numerous times when I have…

What About the Children?

What About the Children?

“Nobody can do for little children what grandparents do. Grandparents sort of sprinkle star-dust over the lives of little children.” ~ Alex Haley When I think of the horrendous reality of being banished from my son’s family, my thoughts often turn to how unnatural it…

My Story

My Story

The day my son got married, I felt like I was having an out of body experience. From all appearances, it was a lovely, lavish wedding, but there was an undercurrent that I couldn’t identify. At the reception, my family and I were directed to…