Tag: denied visitation with grandchildren

MOVING ON

MOVING ON

I woke up this morning feeling lighter, braver, more optimistic. I don’t really know why. I’ve been dealing with moving to another state, feeling a lot of anxiety and fear about the future (a complete waste of time), healing from a recent tooth extraction (totally…

Easter

Easter

Every year when I was a child, my mother took me shopping for a new Easter outfit and, every year, I remember her saying that she hoped that Easter Sunday would be a warm day. In keeping with her optimism, she selected a light dress…

Self-Forgiveness

Self-Forgiveness

It would be wonderful if my adult child would take a more forgiving view of my sins as his mother. I hope one day he gains insight, learns compassion and grows in understanding about the importance of forgiveness. I recently pondered this conundrum when I…

Lessons My Dog Taught Me About Play

Lessons My Dog Taught Me About Play

When was the last time you rode a bike, drew a picture, played cards with friends, swung on a swing, giggled, juggled, bought a yo-yo, walked barefoot on the beach, roasted marshmallows, skipped down the street, wore a silly hat to the grocery store…. ?…

Keeping it Simple

Keeping it Simple

“What do you like doing best in the world, Pooh? [asked Christopher Robin]… “What I like best in the whole world is Me and Piglet going to see You, and You saying ‘What about a little something?’ and Me saying, ‘Well, I shouldn’t mind a…

Recovering My Voice

Recovering My Voice

The following excerpt from ‘The Journey’ by Mary Oliver is apropos of the estrangement I have been experiencing for over six years. I am on a ‘journey,’ one where I struggle to find my voice again as I continue to work on silencing the internal…

A Birthday

A Birthday

I have a birthday coming up and I have been reviewing my life. If I died tomorrow, what would be left unfinished, especially when it comes to matters of the heart? What do I want to say, to write about and to whom? Where do…

It Isn’t Black or White

It Isn’t Black or White

Why is it so difficult to let go? How do I make peace with being a virtual stranger to my grandkids? Why, even in the face of indefensible abuse, can’t I make a clean break? Recently, I vowed to ‘walk away’ from the insanity of…

Choosing Life

Choosing Life

I am taking my life back. I have given my son and his wife enough of my time, thoughts and sorrow. I have cried enough tears, I have lost enough sleep. I will no longer sacrifice my health, my peace of mind or my vitality…